Sparked by Words

Draw back the curtain, dusty and threadbare, to my childhood, and you’ll see a kid propped with a book as often as anything else. We had the first color TV in our neighborhood, a modern wonder that everyone came to watch, me gloating over the regal status of our family. An in-ground swimming pool in our backyard cooled us each afternoon while everyone else traipsed to community pools to escape New Jersey’s blistering summers. I threatened all my limbs racing a bike over the uneven landscape of sidewalk slates erupted by the roots of saplings planted 50 years earlier, now grown to jungle size. My childhood also included an excess of torment, from events I won’t describe or attribute.

At night when my jelly jar beamed with lightning bugs signaling for release, when the attic creaked its rotted beams and Jack Parr entertained adult viewers with his suave, nasal humor on late night TV, I lay in bed with a book and entered worlds more fierce and tragic, heroic and dangerous, romantic and exotic than my own. The Witch of Blackbird Pond, Johnny Tremain, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, Little Women, Black Beauty, The Borrowers, Heidi, Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, The Twenty One Balloons, A Little Princess, The Swiss Family Robinson, Hans Brinker or the Silver Skates, The Secret Garden, Pollyanna, The Railway Children – all these and more captivated me and kept me up hours past bedtime. They gave me insight to the difficult lives of others. They gave me courage, come morning, to tackle another day. One book was so special I’ve already bought a copy for my young grandson, years before he can read it.

The Yearling, by Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings, is about Jody, a youngster who lives in the Florida back country with his parents and his adopted orphaned fawn. Life is harsh and hard scrabble, every grain of corn a hedge between mere hunger and flat out starvation, every encounter with nature a potential threat to existence, every neighbor an adversary with their own desperate circumstances to overcome. Jody adores his indulgent pa, his remote ma, his sensitive, crippled friend, and the fawn, Flag. Flag grows up to become a healthy, ravenous buck and a threat to the family’s tenuous grasp on sufficient sustenance for the following year, forcing Jody to make an  unthinkable decision.

It gripped me like no other book. It was first of all much longer than anything I’d read by at least 100 pages. Rawlings believed I could read a book this long, that I had the stamina to maintain attention for a sustained period. She trusted that I had the intelligence to keep tabs on a large cast of characters, some despicable, some so ingratiating that I still love them, all of them original and unforgettable. She engaged me with a complex plot and a sense of language so identifiable that I learned to speak 19th century Floridian with the best of the swamp dwellers.

More than that, Rawlings threw me a life raft. All the stories I’d read and loved told tales of people, usually children, surviving unlikely odds, but The Yearling treated me like an adult. (In fact, she wrote a book. It has come to be considered a young adult book.) Her dollar words and profound ideas made me think about the issues that motivate people to endure the impossible. The story gave me insight into how to navigate the unpredictable and sometimes violent swamp of my childhood. It showed me a way to identify the currents beneath my own strange family issues and swim to the surface. I couldn’t understand Jody’s ma, and I couldn’t understand my own mother. And the book made me try to write like Rawlings.

What did a New Jersey kid know about the wilds of the Louisiana or Florida swamps, the vastness of the American prairie, or even the poverty of the downtown Black neighborhoods? Not much. Didn’t stop me from writing about them. My stories became populated with folks who had Southern drawls or Western twangs and lived in foul places built more of imagination than any reference to real locales. What did an 11-year-old know about restrictive social impositions on the other side of town that made it impossible for a man to care for his family or for a woman to walk proudly? Hardly a thing. Didn’t stop me from creating them. My characters faced unjust tribulations and resolved them with courage and invention even if the events were outrageous and the outcomes impossible. I didn’t even flinch from occasionally letting a protagonist die. Melodrama was my forte.

My teachers encouraged me, if only because I used lots of adverbs and adjectives and fashioned strange names for my characters. I won a few school awards and fleeting acknowledgement. My parents applauded my effort, though I’m pretty sure they never read anything I wrote.

No matter. In the far dark corner sat a little woman with a stern face who waited patiently while I put down my stories in longhand. My hero, Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings, prodded me to write. Decades ago and long interrupted but now restarted, I began to write stories. I wrote first for children; now I write for adults. My stories are about people who confront savage or mysterious circumstances and overcome personal failure to find a way to triumph. It’s what happened to Jody. I try to engage readers as much as Rawlings engaged me. I hope that people find solace in my stories for what can’t be described or attributed in their lives.

What childhood book stays with you?

Book cover image courtesy Charles Scribner’s Sons

Comments on: "The Yearling and the Young Writer" (16)

  1. I have a special place in my heart for WATERSHIP DOWN by Richard Adams. One of my elementary school teachers read it aloud to us, and he was brilliant at it. To this day, when I reread all or part of it, I still hear his voice. Thank you, Mr. O’Neill!


    • Read the entire book out loud? Holy Moley, that’s a lot of reading aloud. But I bet it was a fabulous performance. Watership Down is one of my favorites as well, though it’s been decades since I’ve read it.


  2. Great post, Shari. At the conference Diana and I went to, one of the presenters told us to develop our platform, we had to state in one sentence what we write. I struggled and have yet to do that. You did it without pause–“My stories are about people who confront savage or mysterious circumstances and overcome personal failure to find a way to triumph”

    I love it.


    • Thank you, Jacqui. Nice to know I’m on track about something.

      I’ve heard you accurately describe what you write, but you, of course, write in at least 2 genres. You get 2 sentences!


  3. I was moved by the comments that you left on Aarthi’s poem, your heart sees and speak so genuinely in such a inspiring way. So I was moved to read your blog. You are a marvelous talent…you really are. Your words share a certain real bliss that stays. God bless you my sister!


    • Oh my gosh, Wendell, I am spinning by your accolade. Thank you so much.
      As for Aarthi’s poems – I love reading her blog as I calm down for a few minutes each day and enter a place brimming with her youthful eye
      and enthusiasm.


  4. Isn’t it wonderful that something someone has written can have such a lasting impact on another person? If that isn’t a reason for plodding on as a writer, I don’t know what is.


    • I absolutely agree with you. I’d read many other books by the time I read Yearling, but it was this book that made me decide I wanted to become a writer. I had such respect for the world that Rawlings created, for the characters whom I loved, for the drama in the story. I wanted not only to write, I wanted to be Rawlings and write just like her. Still find this book admirable.


  5. Sharon, this post just blew me away. A kindred spirit… I also read book after book as I lived through my parent’s divorce, as a pre-teen and beyond. My siblings would sit on either side of me and beg me to stop and engage with them.

    When I grow up, or obtain a few years of publicly writing my feelings under my belt, I want to be just like you. Your sentences flow so well. They make me want to settle in with a blanket and a glass of wine. Thanks for sharing your story.

    The Secret Garden and Little Lord Fauntleroy are two of my favorites.


    • I sensed the connection as well. Books were a haven for me, and as I grew up, a means of making sense of the world.

      Audrey, I’m blushing from the compliments you’ve paid me. Please realize I also get much pleasure from reading your blog. I’m honored by your words and hope I can always live up to your expectations. Thank you.


  6. I love the way you tell your story about the road to becoming a writer. My childhood has some special book memories too


  7. For me [also a child with my nose always in a book, as an adult I always have my nose in a book] it was Black Beauty, Heidi, Little Women, Watership Down, all the Swallows & Amazons. Probably Black Beauty the most, as a farmer’s daughter I understood animals. SD


    • I had never heard of the Swallows and Amazons series. Just looked up the title on the web and am surprised that I missed them. Seems like stories I would have loved when I was a kid. The description of the author, how he came to write the books, and his subsequent decisions about the book art and his relationship to the real people on which he based the books is fascinating. Now I really want to read Swallows and Amazons – thanks for the comment and the inspiration.


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